YOGAVASISHTHAM-VAIRAGYA PRAKARANAM – AHAMKARAJUGUPSA VARNANAM

            योगवसिष्ठम्

वैराग्यप्रकरणम्- सर्गः १५     
            अहंकारजुगुप्सा वर्णनम्
Rama speaks to Viswamitra and other sages about Ahamkara
(Ego) in these verses selected from the Vairagrya Prakarana of Yogavasishtham.
मुधैवाऽभ्युत्थितो
मोहान्मुधैव परिवर्धते
मिथ्यामयेन
भीतोऽस्मि दुरहङ्कारशत्रुणा ॥
I am terrified by the enemy of harmful Ahamkara (I-ness, ego)
which, just like that, arises and grows out of delusion and which is the very
embodiment of Mithyaa (unTruth)
अहंकारवशादेव
दोषकोशकदर्थताम् |
ददाति
दीनदीनानां संसारो विविधाकृतिः ॥
It is only
this Ahamkara which generates so many evils and  creates for these miserable creatures this
samsara
(phenomenal world) of multiple forms. 
अहंकारवशादापदहंकारात्
दुराधयः|
अहंकारवशादीहा
त्वऽहंकारो ममाऽऽमयः ॥
It is Ahamkara
which is my disease. It is the root cause of all my miseries, mental tensions
and worries and all desires.
तमहंकारमाश्रित्य
परमं चिरवैरिणम्|

भुञ्जे  न पिबाम्यम्भः किमु भोगान् भुजे
मुने  ॥
This Ahamkara is my long-standing  and the greatest enemy because of which I
neither eat food nor drink water. O Sage! What to talk of other sense
enjoyments? (I don’t touch them)
संसाररजनी
दीर्घा माया मानसमोहिनी|
ततोऽहंकार
दोषेण किरातेनेव वागुरा ॥
The negative qualities arising out of Ahamkara  have created the long night of this samasara
and have deluded the mind by Maya as a hunter spreading his net (to trap
animals or birds) 
यानि
दुःखानि दीर्घाणि विषमाणि महान्ति च|
अहंकारात्
प्रसूतानि तान्यगात् खदिरा इव ॥
It is Ahamkara
 which gives birth to long days of
misery and great difficulties just like khadira trees on mountain
slopes.
शमेन्दुसैंहिकेयास्यं
गुणपद्महिमानिलम् |
शम्यमेघशरत्कालमहंकारं
त्यजाम्यहम् ॥
I am abandoning this Ahamkara which is like Rahu for the
moon of quiescence of mind, snow storm to the lotus of good qualities and the
season of autumn for the clouds of shama
नाऽहं
रामो न मे वाञ्छा भावेषु न च मे मनः|
शान्त
आसितुमिच्छामि स्वात्मनीव जिनो यथा ॥
“ I am not
Rama; I do not have any desires; my mind does not entertain any thought or
emotion; I want to quietly abide in my Self like a muni.” 





सर्वापदां निलयमध्रुवमन्तरस्थ-
मुन्मुक्तमुत्तमगुणेन
न संश्रयामि।
यत्नादहंकृतिपदं
परितोऽतिदुःखं
शेषेण मां समनुशाधि
महानुभाव ॥
This Ego is
the repository of all troubles,  extremely
fickle, internal and devoid of  good
qualities.  With great effort I try to
free myself from this which is the cause of much misery.  O Great Sage! Kindly instruct me about what
remains to be done by me  (to get rid of
this).  

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